Three Ls.

Love. Life. Lust.

As I entered my room, I lie down on my soft, wide, red rose bed and stared at the ceiling. A thought run through my head and reminds me of a question a friend asked me, “Is love really Love? Or it’s just Lust?” Honestly, most of the times, or sometimes, I find Love confusing.

I have my opinion and I believe love always involves pain and sadness. There will never be "love" without it. Love comes up with different elements. Pain, sadness, happiness, contentment, acceptance, sacrifice, understanding, listening, forgiveness, and sometimes it involves "to forget" and “to let go”. Pain, one of the things that will help you realize that you've actually fallen in love. We define hurt or pain in different ways, and for love I find it in another way. You'll never get hurt if you never cared. It wouldn't cause pain if it's not important.

I definitely agree with, "Sweet thoughts are never guarantees" and, "Misunderstood the person's actions". I’ve been through here and like everybody else; I’ve been through a lot of things in life. But there's one thing I realized, there will never be "love" if no one loves. Maybe, most of the time, we misunderstood the person's sweetness and kindness that ended up and caused the other to fall in love. But for me, it’s not an extraordinary event of our life, it’s natural in deed. We have emotions. And as a human, we are sensitive and concern about the things we see and feel, and sometimes it comes to the point that out of our awareness it’s transforming into “love”. The guy fallen in love but the girl said, “I love you as a friend”. But remember, we all started as strangers and some others ended up being friends, or enemies, lovers, it could be brothers and sisters, or whatever it could be. Maybe the girl dedicated her life to be his friend, but because she is human, like us, she has weaknesses. Meaning, there’s one thing that’ll make her heart melt and will make her realize that the words “I want you as a friend” could be “I’ve fallen in love to you my friend.”

About “lust". I don’t know but I don’t think it’s a big deal. Like I said, humans are emotional. We are sensitive about the things we see and feel. I call it, body language. Like when we were happy, some people laugh to express they’re happy, some of them smile, pokes another due to their extreme happiness, we hug each other, and more. When we were out of control and we feel too much anger, what do we do? Most of us stomp or throw things around. Body language... Sex is a gift given by God. A gift meant for two lovers. Maybe if the girl loves the guy, then the guy is a total pervert who only wants sex, it’s like opening a gift that’s not meant for you. For me, “lust” is a part of “love”, but at the right time and place. When both parties are ready.

Destiny. I believe in destiny. That there’s a person that’s meant for us. But for me, we mould our own destiny. Sometimes I was thinking, maybe I’ve already let go of the right guy for me, the one that’s meant for me. There have been many guys that I could have spent my life with but it was their choice to leave in the end. But I realized, life is like a series of multiple choice on test papers. Different choices. There could be three, four, five, or more different choices. All we have to do is think and decide what we really want to do and what we believe is the right thing to do. Fight for the things we could fight for. Let go of the things that never worked. Give without expecting an exchange. There’s a lot more choices. It’s up to you what to choose. But there’s one thing that I do know and we should never forget, “Live with no regret.”